poison

Why do I have to cut my ties with you
to realize that I don't really need you.
I don't need this poisonous connection
that has ripped through my heart
and spread through my entire body,
shocking me and then leaving me
a motionless creature.

11:11

I wish I may,
I wish I might.
Every single freaking night
I wish upon that sacred minute.
11:11. It's always the same.
I wish for you, love,
to feel the love,
the same love I feel for you.

Chances are you won't
Chances are I won't stop trying.
So 11:11 come again soon
I need to make my wish come true!

The Rollar Coaster of You and Me

When I talk to them about you,
It all seems so clear to me.
I am wasting my time,
I have fallen victim to this love.

But when I talk to you about anything,
My heart pounds and feelings bubble,
threatening to erupt,
Showering the earth with happiness.

And then when I don't talk to you.
I begin to question,
All that I am and all that could have been.
It's a continuous cycle,
a rollar coaster that I can't get off.
No matter how hard I scream

No more

You've never cared about me have you?
You're not sorry that you have taken all that I have
without bothering to give anything in return.
How can someone so small rip such a large
section of my heart away?
You'll never know how much I've hurt.
Because you never cared.
And it's likely that you never will.
I am through giving away free love.
You don't deserve the love I was so willing to share.
No, you don't even deserve to be my friend.
Where did you go?
Where is the boy I used to know?
The one who cared and shared and loved?
This new identity that you have is cold and selfish.
I hate him for taking away the first one that truly mattered to me.
No more.

Can you hear the echos?

You tell me not to worry about not being perfect.
Do you realiz,e though, that you are the problem.
Do you realize that since I'm in love all by myself,
that I wonder what's wrong with me?

I am screaming out to you,
as loud as my lungs will allow.
Can you even hear the echos?
You are in your own world
Why can't you let me in?

My whole world is you.
It's sad but it's entirely too true.
I cry when you're far and I beam when you're near.
My world must spin on; with or without you.
So hop on quick or miss me forever.

Grown Up

I think that in a way I have grown up.
Grown stronger, grown smarter, grown apart from you.
It only took one time for me to see
that I didn't need you every second of every day.
If you don't want what I do, I don't need you.
I've grown stronger
Holding my head up strong
When your shoulder's not there to lean it on.
I've grown smarter
Realizing all of this may not be right for me
But still keeping a tiny sliver of hope.
I've grown apart from you.
You're like a peice of my childhood
and I can take you with or leave you behind.
You decide. No! In fact, I'll decide!

Flipside...

One day I was miserable.
Fearing that I had lost you.
I saw you drifting away
Like a beautiful flower floating down the river
Beautiful, precious, and unattainable.
Or so it seemed...
But today, you seemed to pause,
look back at me and dare me to take a risk,
to dive deep into the waters of the unexpected,
the waters of the undescribable.
So here I go.
Into the Flipside