And Nerves Keep Coming...

I got an email from my track coach today reminding everyone that we have three weeks left until the beginning of the season. I just burst into a frenzy of worry. Not only that I won't have enough time to train since I must pool/bike due to my stress fracture, but also because I just worry that I won't be ready. Running is so much different than pooling or biking. I'm afraid that I'll be either so behind that I won't be able to keep up and acheive my goals, or I will push myself too hard like I did in cross country. I need to calm down, I know, but this past season was so close to a dream come true that turned into a nightmare. I would never upon my worst enemy, not that I have one, to lose their true love. I will be excited to return, but it just won't be the same. This injury will forever be etched into my mind, a scar of my hurt. Without running, I think return to my bad eating habits, and with running I do the same. Where is the upside to this situation?

Monday Blues

Today as you can tell, is Monday. Worse than that, it is a full week of school. ew. Oh well, for a Monday, it went pretty fast. Last night I couldn't fall asleep for a long time. I am really confused, nervous, scared, excited, and happy all at the same time. So many thoughts! I think that I have a worrying problem that intensifies by like 20 at night! So i just lie there and toss and turn and think and worry. I'm not sure what to do with this one because there is just so much history and so many genuine feelings involved. I'm not just worried about my overdo library books here. Everything around is changing. Love is in the air, I swear. Everytime I turn around there is some new couple or some new pregnant girl at school. I want to go work out but it's snowing hard....Oh well, that never stops me anyway.
More Later,
♥MK

Deja Vu

All of yesterday was the retreat at my church. I had a good feeling about this day! I had a talk written which I was supposed to share with everyone. It was about how my self-image and eating problems took over this summer and also about how supportive my sister has been throughout my life. Last year at this retreat I realized that I really liked a boy that was there. Things didn't work out between us, but last night it seemed like deja vu. Now I don't know what will happen, but I'm glad to have him back :)
More later!

♥MK

A Gift From Above

I woke up this morning to a text from one of my best friends exclaiming in all capital letters "NO SCHOOL AGAIN!" I could not beleive it! Two snow/ice days in a row are as rare as a purple platypus walking down the street! This is a miracle and I will tell you why. 1) As previously stated this type of this is extremely rare 2) I have one more day to work on my English paper 3) Even if we have school tomorrow, we will have only had two days of school this week 4) I can clean my room and watch some Glee 5) I get to make some cookies :) Overall, I think that this is going to me a wonderful day!
I'll tell you all about it later
♥MK

All Smiles

Back again. Although the roads were slick this morning, I made it to the orthodontist and duh duh duh duh!... NO MORE BRACES! I am still in the phase where I think that my teeth are really big but overall I am much happier with this situation. I can't help but feel like this is a new start. I am nervous/excited for the retreat this weekend.

Cross Your Fingers & Toes

Today is supposed to be the best day of my life...well, ok that may be a bit of an overexaggeration, but hey, at the moment it seems extremely significant. This morning at 10:45 I am scheduled to get my braces off. Since I got the nasty little things on at the beginning of my sophmore year of high school, you can imagine my excitement in getting them off. It's about time!! So, what's the problem you ask? Why are you being asked to cross your fingers and toes? Well, this morning, shortly after 6:00 A.M. I got a text from one of my best friends that it we had..."NO SCHOOL!" Well, yes, that's nice and all, but of course I FREAKED OUT, worried that I may not be able to get my braces off today! But I will not allow this to happen without much hard work! Who or whatever is against me will pay for this! : ) Hopefully, all will go well. I didn't tell many people about this joyus day because I wanted it to be a suprise. AHHH I can not wait!
More Later, I think that I am about to pass out
♥MK